Darkness falls
a soft glowing flashing box ... lines, boxes, shapes, colors
soft whisperings made loud in number
livelihood/death... pain found though not sought
Rememberance of a time before
thoughts of a past place ... flashback to similarity
rememberance of a hope realized
but ... only in thought, not reality
Once there was a place like this
in my mind where *I* dwelt ... awaiting the day of redemption
waiting and waiting, seeing myself coming closer and closer to that day
then realizing that *I* am no closer ... the day is still millennia
away
Past memories of loneliness, hopelessness, confusion
back when there were others at least who, if not sympathetic, at least heard
feeling the weight of my heart in my chest, falling deeper into the pit of
sorrow
feeling my eyes well up with the tears of despair
Depression sinks in
remember before?
remember the last time you felt this way?
but now, where is the hope?